Every January my company goes through a year-end review with every employee. Seems logical considering in a company of more than 10,000 employees it's impossible to keep track of the accomplishments people achieve and struggles they face. However, I'm not a huge fan of this process for several reasons:
1) It's very time consuming updating a very unfriendly form with repetitious information
2) Everyone is compared on a bell curve against everyone else regardless of job position/description
3) If you haven't been with the company for more than 2-3 years, it's impossible to get a good rating
4) Unless a project is your idea, you will never get credit for it. Even if you're the one that implements the process changes and does all of the leg work.
Needless to say, this left me slightly bitter and very discouraged yesterday after meeting with my boss (who, by the way, is no longer my manager). I felt like all my accomplishments in 2013 were completely overshadowed by comments such as, "She's still a new employee", "That idea wasn't necessarily her idea"... Hearing these things really de-motivated me.
After venting to my dad about everything that went wrong he simply reminded me of everything I have going right for me. (One thing I absolutely love about my dad is his encouragement and constant optimism... something I really need to work on) First, he assured me I was being way too hard on myself (a comment like this coming from the guy where a 98 on an exam was never quite good enough meant a lot). He followed up with:
In the moment, sure, I was disappointed. Heck, I guess I still am. But, one thing my dad helped me to remember is I have a relationship with the Creator of the universe and He doesn't want me to compare myself to other people.
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world..." Romans 12:2
"For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10
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